these last couple weeks have been going by in a blur. last week i had to give goodbye speeches in front of the whole school... in english and japanese. at my base school i said the english part fine, and then for some reason when i started on the japanese... i just started to cry. i finished, but i was sooo sad to say goodbye to the students and to this school, i took myself by surprise and i think my students were surprised that i was crying too. at my visit school, i didn't cry, maybe because i got it all out the first time. but after my speech a usually a students comes up to say thank you, and this time one of my favorite students came up and told me he loved me and gave me a hug... it was soo cute!
everytime i have to say goodbye to something tears just fill my eyes. i think this is the first time that i have really had to say goodbye, not knowing when i would see these ppl and places again. in high school and college it was different, because i just knew we would meet again... but now it seems different, although i will come back to japan i just dont know where all these people will be and how much things will change. it almost makes me not want to leave... i wish i could have both... friends, family and places from home with my friends, family, places from japan. ok maybe im being greedy, but if it were a perfect world i would have both!